emo?

Back to my boring and lifeless life ~ I hate when i feel like a total piece of shit! Gotta re-energize myself as soon as possible! *investing in property, rolling my money, personal driver, own a gallery and band room* XDDD

I had a very very very bad sleep last few days. I've been feeling very scared yet i know i have to overcome it. i could only feel my brains were about 30% awake the entire time.

Today i tried to watching tv just now but there weren't any nice shows, i nearly fell asleep on the couch. i think i should do something to take this shitty feeling out of my mind!? draw? read a book? cook something? have a drink? i don't think i can drink right now......

It's tough being alone, all alone in this one lil city. i wonder what life would be if i were to step into a larger one? and if i ever do, what would transpire? what why when how??? wish i could have an immediate answer.

And sometimes i just don't feel like living in this city anymore as much as i'd love to and then i wonder ''where's exactly my home?''

Sometimes, life just feels so tight like strings tied up around your neck. everything in this city is all about prestige. even tho this ain't my life yet am still looking forward to.

Besides, i can't afford to lie down (as much as i'd love to) after a heavy meal when i know i gained a kilo this week! I can feel my cheeks, my arms, waist, thighs and butt EXPANDING. Yet, doc advised me better not to start my diet plan in this weak moment instead of a month later. which mean is on middle of august! am sure become a fatty boom boom after that. farkit. I should listen to doc now to have a healthy good good body =DDD

Btw, i miss the chilly wind ~

Winds kissed on forehead gently ~ I am sick.

以前一离开家就害怕, 现在无论身在何处 都随意而安 ~ 人一旦勇敢 就真正自由 ~